Reflecting on my firstNot sure what direction to take itShould I speak about the first time I thought I was in love?Only to be cheated on repeatedlyVerbally abused that I still have insecurities ‘til todayIn hindsight, I was in a toxic relationshipThe things you learn from a situation like that are paramountMy only knowledge of love was the ones portrayed on movies screensNever saw an example o...

Now I’m thinking of all those who  never got to have many firsts.   Emmett & Trayvon & Tamir boys so light with futures so heavy with life with smiles bright enough to shine through the darkest nights, who will never get their first old car, first bad job, first love and first breakup. Danez says, don’t imagine us dead, Imagine us alive someplace better. & so, I like to imagine the...

i don't want to feel the same stupidity I felt last time when i first fell in lovei call myself out ahead of time to numb the heartbreak as it comesi can already hear the voice inside my head saying thingsthat shouldn't be said if i want this to work out for real this timei just fear knowing i'm right so much it pains me to prevent certain peoplefrom entering my life before i even let themhave ...

somewhere along the lines i snapped. i don't when, i don't where.all that came was this new resonating change pulsing within me so suddenly that i read words appearing out of thin air an energy unlike no other seeping through my skin into the coursing blood and veins. being carried to where it's most needed as its light radiates from inside outechoing fears stopped being heard involuntarily wha...

First things first,Of course I want the best. A first class degreeMeans you really aced the test.You've put in the hours, You truly know your stuff, And on the otherside You're rightly called a buff.But a first's a lot of work,You need to know a bunch of things, And I'm not entirely convincedOf the happiness it brings.Save time in the library.Read fewer books.Save yourself the effort:2.1s aren'...

I’ve been put through the ringerWith tears stinging my faceBeen sent to hell and ran backTo the coastWhere I lost myself in wavesFound love for the first timeLost it to fearLost innocence to fearLost friends to fearLost life to fearI took a stab back at itAnd tar leaked from my heart Though what drainedLeft sun to remainUntil being filled back upThrough comments by those I don’t loveRan to New ...

My first love letter....... No.. that’s not itMy first time making someone squirm in their seat.“Haha” ~ a chuckle escaped me and a smirk took ahold of my lips. You slid, what was it? A rice Krispy, the original was my favorite, or fruit snacks, the motts one- was the only ones I trusted but Welch’s sufficed........ because it was you so you would never hear me complain. Or maybe you leaned the...

I feel like I might have missed out on something,Because I didn't have a first kiss in a cinema car park,With the bumping of faces and grating of braces.It just never quite happened like that.And I didn't have a naïve first holding of hands,Where neither party knew the appropriate time to let go,Leading to both holding on for really, truly, uncomfortably too long.It just never quite happened li...

My first kiss was supposed to be GrandI was supposed to kiss him deeply and  passionately Or sweet and slowOur hands were supposed to tangle in each others hairI was supposed to feel the butterflies wash away In a sea of sparkling firecrackersI was supposed to stare into his eyes No longer with pained longing But with content and fulfillmentWe were supposed to grin like the fools we areBut my f...

A soul's first plunge into the depthsto be tested to the extremes in a cyclical nature not yet known to the breadth of humankind.A mindless wonder through the astral plane,Another arrival to a lifeyou have never lived,another first of many to exist in harmony.The echoes of your lives are heard,And so with the heart,You will see what you have beenBut never what you Could have been, 

Every bit of anxiety Suddenly lifted from me The moment he placed his hands upon my waist And began to give my lips a taste His tenderness seeped into my soul Giving me new hope to hold The intimacy we shared in a few moments Unmatched by a lifetime of leaving myself open The way he grasped me, held me close and tight Made everything in that moment feel so rightThe way his body felt against min...