somewhere along the lines 
i snapped. 
i don't when, i don't where.
all that came was this new 
resonating change pulsing within me so suddenly 
that i read words appearing out of thin air 
an energy unlike no other 
seeping through my skin into the coursing blood and veins. 
being carried to where it's most needed as its light radiates from inside out
echoing fears stopped being heard involuntarily 

what was uncovered was a voice lost for 
god knows how long. 
drowned by those who always
wanted to 
silence
her

to keep her self-esteem lower than theirs 
as if they were trying to protect herself from her 
hidden behind pretty faces bounded white strings
behind our friendship. 
little white strings pulling me this way and that way
in hopes of delaying the chances of realizing the kind of potential 
i hold. 

stuck with an image in my head
blurry and hazy and an accurate representation of what they 
made me out to be 
had i know right from wrong i would've prevented this from happening sooner. 
but how could i when there was nothing to be compared to
most if not all came from the same breed

the ones who want to exudate dominance after being 
suppressed from so long that they believe that's what
friendship is supposed to look like. 

until i had cried yself hard enough to wallow in 
self-pity and want to want to get better
did i choose to stay in an endless rut 
that only caused me to 
would i not have gotten better

for i knew if i had allowed such a negative manifestation to continue 
cultivating down to my very roots
i would have never seen the end to it.
otherwise 
i wouldn't have been any different from 
the likes of 
them