Hop off the 141,Down the street And around the cornerOld man at the zebra crossingEmpty street, is this guy tripping?No cars, just usI should say somethingI get closerI reach himNah, I cant be asked!I cross the roadDown the pathKey in the doorFinally homeUber eats, Thai CurryThe next morning, hilaritySafe to say, it made my dayOne old man and a zebra crossing Still no carsI go to meet him"Alrig...

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A series I started to explore loss and grief of versions of myself, relationships, people and memories. 

"Vulnerable"23.04.2019by Mari MakarovJust me and the birds under the skylet me be here and stay for a while,lie under the light of sparkling eyes,blend one with the nature like a disguise.Swirl the brush through the palette of the mindhave a look around at what you can find,take a deep breath and dive into my mind,I can be vulnerable if you are kind."Wouldn't it be easier" 17.07.2017by Mari Mak...

Female. A disgusting word. Am I not more than what the textbooks make my body out to be? Am I not effeminate enough to wander beyond more than my shape? You call us irrational. Unstable.Dramatic.Sensitive. Female. But it is not you who is considered your own weakness. You are not privileged enough to walk alone at night Without the fear of plundering under our will Or being lucky to one day sit...

She used to experience a time passing in fast motionBut with every new grade reveals a new emotion.As she grows, the grand movie around her begins to dwindleWith some lost friendships she cannot rekindle.Even worse, she does not know what to expect Not just in school, but in herself, a much more vast subject.She sails through treacherous storms, no doubt.She holds the desire to jump overboard w...

Early in the morningYou drove me homeLittle did you knowI contemplated callingDidn’t want my mind to roamStaring at my ceiling Really want to fall asleepBut now i'm in too deepI hate this absurd feelingI’ll let my bright thoughts be.But here we are againIs this one right for me?Will my mind and heart agree?Yeah...So, i've been doing a lot of thinkingRemember, I was staring at my ceiling?Can’t t...

As the clear light brushed my cheek that morning,my overshadowing malconsciousnessfaded to crisp nothingness.Ineffable feels of lost-in-the-world,I who until then had never found the urge -Found it.A pen slid between my fingers and began to bleed the whole of me.

i don't want to feel the same stupidity I felt last time when i first fell in lovei call myself out ahead of time to numb the heartbreak as it comesi can already hear the voice inside my head saying thingsthat shouldn't be said if i want this to work out for real this timei just fear knowing i'm right so much it pains me to prevent certain peoplefrom entering my life before i even let themhave ...

somewhere along the lines i snapped. i don't when, i don't where.all that came was this new resonating change pulsing within me so suddenly that i read words appearing out of thin air an energy unlike no other seeping through my skin into the coursing blood and veins. being carried to where it's most needed as its light radiates from inside outechoing fears stopped being heard involuntarily wha...

i see her. i see her when she thinks i don't see her in the hallwaysi see that she sees me too but we don't see each other being together i know she knows i know aboutthe same feelingswe share. it's too obvious to not show. it's been thereour time spent apart has given space to a weird animosity that wasn't there before. a strange new feeling that separates our "friendship" from what we really ...

i beg myself for another chanceknowing it's one i won't take i ask and i ask and i askbelieving that i will actually take itthe next time around i push my luck but i've never had it run outit's this, that this, excuses up, down, and eventually all around how much longer must i lie to myself to avoid what needs to be owned. i need more to ignoreso i know there's still somewhere were blame can be...