his side
i see her. i see her when she thinks i don't see her in the hallwaysi see that she sees me too but we don't see each other being together i know she knows i know aboutthe same feelingswe share. it's too obvious to not show. it's been thereour time spent apart has given space to a weird animosity that wasn't there before. a strange new feeling that separates our "friendship" from what we really ...
not my fault
i beg myself for another chanceknowing it's one i won't take i ask and i ask and i askbelieving that i will actually take itthe next time around i push my luck but i've never had it run outit's this, that this, excuses up, down, and eventually all around how much longer must i lie to myself to avoid what needs to be owned. i need more to ignoreso i know there's still somewhere were blame can be...
305 N Houston Dr.
you were six feet from me but so far awayI needed a safe bed so badly I needed you to tell me you loved methat it was gonna be okay I needed someone to tell metell me I'm safe it's going to be okayI'm here for you I always will be you were six feet from me but so far awayI knocked on your door I called your name I knocked on your doorI called your nameI knocked on your doorI knocked on your doo...
Next Second, You Were Gone
I heard about an old broken phone box Where people would go to talk, to have imaginary conversationsAt first, I found it foolishAnd then I joined the queue. When my turn came, I dialled your old numberI knew this was no second chance, but I told you everything And I waited in silenceAs if you might respond. I thought I heard you breathe.I hung up when I remembered they told me my l...
how to drown
if i imagine you hard enough maybe this time you’ll stick around so i count to tendeep breath, eyes closedand by the grace of god i watch your hands waltz across my bodyyou’re nimble fingered and mischievousbut the glint of playful lust in your eyes doesn’t quite mask the 6ft drop of blinding loveand so we inhale each otherlocked lipswe fuck and we are whole peopleand by the grace of god i touc...
Bandages
I was starting to forget youBut you came slithering back.Relieved at first, I thought You had forgotten me as well, And you tore off my bandagesAnd watched the blood come rushing.Why did I show you my scars?I wish I didn’t see yours...I thought you had found someone who would tie you down instead.Not me, I have no chains,Only bandages.I was ready to forget youWhen you came crawling back.What ar...
I know,
Taunt me. Do it. I dare you.You'll regret it. I know, I've felt this before.Fight me. Do it. I dare you.You'll back out.I know, I've seen this before.Scream at me. Do it. I dare you.You'll lose it.I know, I've heard this before.I've heard this before.I know, And I lost it.I've seen this before.I know, And I backed out of it.I've felt this before.I know, And I regret it.And here I am again.I kno...
Why do second chances exist?
Why do second chances exist? I know. I know the pain. I know the supressed crushing feeling of your heart which ravenously struggles to beat inside your aching chest.It murmurs as you try to catch your breath and tiny crystals dance down your cheeks, sad in their own way.It almost feels as if it longs to squeeze out,Tearing. Ripping. Shredding your flesh,Leaving the place in which it was once s...
Please forgive me!
Please, give me a Second chance!I beg you!I know;I am not perfect.I remember the day I broke our relationship To pieces;Before that fateful fall,You were good to me.Your reassured me thatIf all else failed,Only you had my back.You loved me more thanI loved you.You knew this,Yet you continuedTo love me unconditionally,Even when I abused you,Verbally and physically.That day, I had had enough.I le...
Some love is never lost
Some love is never lostEven when the relationship Is not same anymoreYou still want to cryWhen you see them sufferingYou still want to lend them a shoulder When you see them helpless Your heart still skips a beatWhen you see them unhappy Because somewhere In some corner of your heartThere is some loveThat’s never lost
Chance
I gave her chancesPlenty of chancesChances to act and walk and talk and breatheAnd treat and wound the way sheShould.We had our chance, and we blew it through a paper straw,Watched it blow away like litter in the wind.Shoulders hunched, spine aching,Back breaking with the weight of the world.I am in her arms, her head lies dormant on my chestSimply a breath away from the press of my lipsTo skin...
Start Again
You called it second chance
You called it our last dance
I called it being nothing but a fool
I did think with me
you were going to be cruel
I was nothing but lost back then
Now I know
Forgiveness I had to show
Through the state of chaos
Young , disoriented hearts who tried their best
Your love has made me feel nothing but blessed
With you here I do not remember any pain
Jo...