Breath in breath outI feel like my chest is going to cave inIn outI’m drowning in myselfDeep breathsThink of something elseI put a piece of gum in my mouthConcentrate on the feeling of it on my tongueI want to cryFeel the gumI want to scream but I can’tBreath in breath outI need to escape but where will I run I’m trappedDeep breathsIn outFeel the gumIt’s not workingI can’t stop it from comingAn...

I’ve suffered with depression and anxiety for years which along with family tragedies led me to alcoholism, close to losing everything I decided to turn it around, I asked for help and went through rehab. I then volunteered at the rehab centre until going through the training myself and becoming a qualified Peer Mentor to help other addicts of drugs and alcohol to get and stay clean and sober. ...

I come undone Like fabrics that are being sown togetherI unfold into tidyripping apart looks like falling togetherI make clean of all my messes Make them easy and palpable And when I am living in the easyI must exaggerate feelings I live in the nocturnalParallel of what you think should happenI organized your thoughts last nightIn all the time I spent processingI dried your ink and dotted your ...

This is a short film on anxietyEshanmsg@gmail.comhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NzUTm437xnQ

I don’t know who she is...But she stands nearbyGiant and peculiar with great delicate hairHollow eyes of glassy reflectionBlue tinted skin that shows gray in the lightWhy stand there beside my door?Does she want something, could it be me?I never see her, yet I know she’s thereWearing a sunhat by my moonlit bedroomVelvet book sitting tame on my arm Why stand there alone?Even though your presenc...

Anxiety can stop you in your tracks and hold you back. One could slowly and easily slide into depression, trauma and disintegration. It's not easy to face your fears and push through them, but it's essential.Each of us must confront our own fears, must come face to face with them. How we deal with our fears will determine where we go with the rest of our lives. To experience adventure or to be...

I’m familiar with the pain Of when you look at that person with adoring eyesOnly for them to look at someone else I’m familiar with the pain Of that slight stabbing feeling when someone you loved Is with someone elseI’m familiar with the painOf when someone rejects you,Twisting the knife further into your heartI’m familiar with the painWhen someone you thought was your friend Stabs you in the b...

Do you hear the wolves? They call me. Whispers in my ear that summon to an abyss, ‘You cannot stop the shadow’ they say, ‘With every sunset we will return,’ Return to what I wonder? All that remains is a wasteland, Where once meadows bloomed, Death resides, Carving his name into the very bones. Do you hear the wolves? I howl. I fall blindly into shadow and smile, ‘You cannot stop the light’ I s...

Can’t get up, can’t sleep, my depression finally got the best of meDown to 90 lbs, I should eat, but this house is my only safetyOn the other hand, my anxiety playing tricks on meTurned me into someone I didn’t want to beIf you don’t do something nowYou’ll never be able to breathe “You’re crazy” is what my ex said to meOr was it the lies my anxiety told to me?Closed my door at work thinking I’m...