The calm of your hesitant shyness then .. Your sudden instant fearlessness unapologetic in explosion- when you first kissed me

You are :  Thefirst BoyWho SpokeTo Me WithoutWords 

i want raw vivid blood red of wild raspberriesgrown far away from a road tumbled in my two hands i want bus stops that look like strawberries with the windows that smell like vanilla, orchids at home, and a cigaretteand little red houses with ceramic bowls for my keys i want to lie next to the beautiful buzzcut boy with the silver crescent moon through one left nostril with bass pedals like lea...

Here I sitAlone once againIt was bound to come But when it hit, I refused to accept itIt hurts When he left it hurtI thought we’d be friends foreverNoThat was naiveI thought we’d have another couple of years together at least But he turned and said goodbye and moved on Deep down I knew it was coming But I still defied it This is what I deserve I never deserve enough ……………………..Is it? …………………I mi...

The envy that spills from my mouth as I open it is undeniable I tell you ‘congratulations’ and send you on your wayMy mind knows the truth but my body seems to pass it alongFore it is the only thing left that has hopeThe hope that we will once be with each other Holding each other closely as if nothing mattered Together, as one 

That first glancethat deadly ‘hello’    … who would have known that those big brown eyes would be the catalyst of a poetry book