I am Alive

For those of you who dont know me 
it doesnt make a diffrence
But I come to you as a new woman today 
For I had a relization 
and this might be entirely obvious to you 
Maybe is just me

But I woke up and thought "my god im alive, I'm really actually alive!" 
That thought hit me like the butt end of a rifle 
I kissed the ground and thanked it.
Thanked the dust and hair stuck to my lip. 

I must have been screaming 
"Thank you, thank you, you were a piece of me and I must appeciate you!" 
I saw the world, I really saw the world. 
My eyes are new. I walked outside and my lungs were new too, I breathed and it felt like there were roots in chest. 
I kissed everything, the ground, trees, cars parked in the street, I would have kissed the sky if I could.

I woke up early so I didnt see anyone at first, but when i did I was amazed "how can it be that all of these people fileling out of there little houses, into there little cars to there big buildings, how can it be that there all alive?" I saw the joy, the love, the life, the hate, Everything. I stated shaking everyones hands, they thought I was drunk, but i didnt care, I was far too in love with them to care. And that feeling swallowed me whole, I was swimming in it. And I saw everything, the rocks on the ground, the glass in store windows, broken stairs, crying children. 
"I am a fool" I said it out loud. I am one, I never saw it before, how could I have never seen this world, never really smelled the air, never really tasted my food, I didn't see anybody and they didn't see me. 

I am an Angel, I must be. I must be this beautiful angel, meant to feel every kind of love every, kind of hate, every sadness will knock on my door and I will invite them in, I have too, I have too, because I am alive, and I want to be alive. 


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