i don't want to feel the same stupidity I felt last time when i first fell in lovei call myself out ahead of time to numb the heartbreak as it comesi can already hear the voice inside my head saying thingsthat shouldn't be said if i want this to work out for real this timei just fear knowing i'm right so much it pains me to prevent certain peoplefrom entering my life before i even let themhave ...

What am I supposed to do when the first man I've ever loved no longer loves me?What am I supposed to do when I have to beg him to say the three words I want to hear the most?What am I supposed to do when the words that used to bring me so much warmth are now cold and empty?"I love you." No, you don't.You don't love me. But I really really love you. I want to wake up from this nightmare.I want t...