My long vacation came unexpected on March 14 2020, i was crying inside when my school announced us to clean out the studio within 12 hours. Two months later, I finished my senior year of college in my pastel yellow bedroom without knowing if i actually liked the works i made over years and feeling drained at the same time. During that summer I didn’t make any artwork. I felt like i was stuck, out of ideas, more like out of motivation. It was later that fall i actually missed making something. That time i decided to make myself enjoy the process of making by drawing whatever I wanted to draw. It may sound simple, but it was hardest thing for me to do because I had doubts. It took 8 months to create three complete works, even during that time there were few weeks that I didn’t feel motivated at all. I waited till i got stubborn so that i would want to paint again. I found my new completed works raw, exposed, and vivid. I really like them, and there are no better words to describe my satisfaction of my own art . The year 2020 was the inspiration these works, which observe and analyze what I was feeling during quarantine and throughout the pandemic: grief, anxiety, isolation, and disassociation.