I've worn glasses for most of my life
And for a few years when i went in for a check up my prescription would always change
Either because my vision was improving or because it wasn't
And it was usually the latter
And for those who also wear glasses you know how it feels to get new prescription
Blurry vision
Headaches
Kinda woozy
But after a few days
You got used to your new prescription and could finally enjoy the feeling of seeing again
Getting new glasses was kinda like the first time I had to make a big move
Before I moved a city away from home
I felt as if I was living life blindly
And when I try to remember those day's they only come blurry
I lived life carelessly
Did as pleased without thinking
And my mind barely ever made play when it came to decision making
But then I moved
And the blind folds were removed
And everything became crystal clear after a few days
At first it was a little hard get used to
Blurry faces and names
Headaches but for different reasons
Kinda overwhelming
But the difference between this and glasses is that the glasses were meant to help
And after a while I'd wouldn't even notice that they were on my face
But this
It crept around me like a stalker
Even though I couldnt see it
I always felt it around me
It only presented itself around people
It was a new feeling
Overwhelming at times
And sometimes even when it was there I felt nothing
At first it only came in forms of voices
The headaches came from obsessively over thinking
Then it also came in forms of bouncy feet
Shakey hands
Shallow breaths
And so much more
Like lonely feelings
A hollow chest
And thoughts that I couldnt keep away
It was consistent
Would repeat its self until it got a reaction
It was like my own personally bully that no one else could see
But when I looked in the mirror it was always just me
It made me cry in bathroom stalls
Push friends away for no reason
Have a sudden mood change
Once I'm smiling then I was crying
I was so confused
Lost for so long
Forced my self to look for what I had before the move
Some days it got so bad that I wanted to put back on the blind folds and reverse history
Live back in my childhood memories and on those days
I simply removed my glasses
As the years went by
Like new glasses
After a while I got used to the new feelings and forgot about everything before then
The long search that I went through in order to get back my past was over
But nothing was found
As time went by I slowly began to forget what exactly I was looking for
At first I thought it was the innocence that the world had taken away from me
Then I thought it was maybe my long lost happiness
Then I got tired of searching
Got tired of hoping that things would be like it was back home
Tired of hoping
Then I got tried of caring
Then it was living
If I had known
That blurry vision was better seeing
Then I would've cherished the times that I lived life blindly
Once I removed the blind folds
The world had nothing to hide from me anymore
It didnt care about the innocence they were stealing
Or the happiness I was loosing
The monster that disguised themselves as childhood innocents
Would finally reveal there true intentions
And for a few years when i went in for a check up my prescription would always change
Either because my vision was improving or because it wasn't
And it was usually the latter
And for those who also wear glasses you know how it feels to get new prescription
Blurry vision
Headaches
Kinda woozy
But after a few days
You got used to your new prescription and could finally enjoy the feeling of seeing again
Getting new glasses was kinda like the first time I had to make a big move
Before I moved a city away from home
I felt as if I was living life blindly
And when I try to remember those day's they only come blurry
I lived life carelessly
Did as pleased without thinking
And my mind barely ever made play when it came to decision making
But then I moved
And the blind folds were removed
And everything became crystal clear after a few days
At first it was a little hard get used to
Blurry faces and names
Headaches but for different reasons
Kinda overwhelming
But the difference between this and glasses is that the glasses were meant to help
And after a while I'd wouldn't even notice that they were on my face
But this
It crept around me like a stalker
Even though I couldnt see it
I always felt it around me
It only presented itself around people
It was a new feeling
Overwhelming at times
And sometimes even when it was there I felt nothing
At first it only came in forms of voices
The headaches came from obsessively over thinking
Then it also came in forms of bouncy feet
Shakey hands
Shallow breaths
And so much more
Like lonely feelings
A hollow chest
And thoughts that I couldnt keep away
It was consistent
Would repeat its self until it got a reaction
It was like my own personally bully that no one else could see
But when I looked in the mirror it was always just me
It made me cry in bathroom stalls
Push friends away for no reason
Have a sudden mood change
Once I'm smiling then I was crying
I was so confused
Lost for so long
Forced my self to look for what I had before the move
Some days it got so bad that I wanted to put back on the blind folds and reverse history
Live back in my childhood memories and on those days
I simply removed my glasses
As the years went by
Like new glasses
After a while I got used to the new feelings and forgot about everything before then
The long search that I went through in order to get back my past was over
But nothing was found
As time went by I slowly began to forget what exactly I was looking for
At first I thought it was the innocence that the world had taken away from me
Then I thought it was maybe my long lost happiness
Then I got tired of searching
Got tired of hoping that things would be like it was back home
Tired of hoping
Then I got tried of caring
Then it was living
If I had known
That blurry vision was better seeing
Then I would've cherished the times that I lived life blindly
Once I removed the blind folds
The world had nothing to hide from me anymore
It didnt care about the innocence they were stealing
Or the happiness I was loosing
The monster that disguised themselves as childhood innocents
Would finally reveal there true intentions
