December, 24, 2020 (2 hours before my birthday) 
So my 22nd year of life was the year I had to know what loss was but times infinity from getting out of an abusive relationship to it finally being seen to knowing an illness can be so deadly it causes shut downs and left with questions with no answers also the crippling problems of never wanting to be in public and seeing the eyes of people you thought once said they cared look at you in the biggest judgement it causes silence toward your existence and you know you don’t have a chance of having anyone believing your words to healing from a wound the embarrassment hurt more than any punch to the face to giving the social life another try only to meet someone you thought was the person you been needing only to be let down again but at the lost of the person you gained unexpected friendships you didn’t know you had to have and they had to have you too. In a few hours I will no longer be 22 and it has taught me the lesson I was so unprepared for filled with multiple problems I had no choice but to keep solving and realizing in the process of solving im also erasing what I thought could be the answer but wasn’t and I’ve learned my lesson this way ⏳