Nobody really knows the real me, 
 Everyone just sees me with a smile. 
 There are times that I'm really happy, 
 other times I sit and cry all night. 
 Don't get me wrong I am happy to, 
 When I am alone I start to show. 
 Sometimes I don't feel it for awhile, 
 something sets me off then it happens. 
 There is some other section of me, 
 that i've tried not to express often. 
 Everyone just sees this happy girl, 
 She will always be perky or bright. 
 But I posses an alter ego, 
 Ill isolate my mind to wander. 
 I went in to much I got pulled in, 
 I cannot let my darkness escape. 
 If I break then people will worry, 
 I've constantly keep myself busy. 
 I don't have to worry about it, 
 Will keep it all trap inside me then. 
 there is something in me that changes, 
 My feelings will be built up with stone. 
 it's strong but it weakens over time, 
 Stone is not working thus it crumbles. 
 Then like stone I started to collapse, 
 My side starts to display it's no good. 
 In this state I am vulnerable, 
 But not to the world but to myself. 
 soon that ego will overthrow me, 
 I have battled will it for some time. 
 My courage is firm but might lose grip, 
 I will always keep fighting it's like. 
 take two steps backwards and one forward, 
 The insane side that is ment to be. 
 The side that I need to be a part, 
 that means it could be the end for me.
 Although it looks like the end is near, 
 not the end it is the beginning. 
 I have learned if I survive the pain, 
 makes me that much stronger than before. 
 The most important thing I learn is, 
 I don't have to go through this alone.