ARTIST’S QUOTE – MATTHEW SANTOS (MA/SA)
For me this song is about the ending of a long-term relationship and learning how to live with the void of that deeply-rooted bond—and the distractions that we use to not feel the heartache and loss, to avoid looking deep into the mirror and confronting our own mistakes and misgivings. There’s a drawn out process of grieving that happens through avoidance and distraction post breakup. A haunting of mundane things, like her spirit of living sown through my every day dealings. Those things that keep us up at night, the stolen pillow rest swept up in reruns of regret and arresting sadness. Escape seems like the only option. A vicious cycle of turning cheek while the lonely winter groans, running from the cold into the arms of a willing stranger, afloat through the nights on a cloud. Yet there you are again, on the ceiling of my dark room, soaked in dream. You are moonlight and gravity as I fall upward into you thru the quiet night, mourning the restless break of day, knowing that nothing will ever be the same. We are forever changed, and now, you are in my breath.
DIRECTOR’S STATEMENT – DIDIER KONINGS
In this video, I wanted to explore the dark place we can fall into when we’re grieving a relationship. Coming to terms with the loss is the only way to eventually grow out of that darkness.
It was truly a blessing to work with this team to create a world and narrative that reflected the weight of the song. Together we were able to capture the feeling through an incredibly moving performance by our leads, working hand in hand with our production design and visual storytelling.
Song written by Matthew Santos and XELA (@xexexela_)
Produced by XELA
Mixed/Mastered by XELA
In My Breath music video
Starring:
Oak Onaodowan
Hope Harris
Marisol Miranda
Director/Designer: Didier Konings
Producer: Leah Silberman
DP/Producer: Clifton Stommel
Associate Producer: Emily Shearman
Prop Master: Evelyn Stommel
Production Assistant: Alexa Castelvecchi
Camera Operator: Logan Miller
Production Assistant: Eloise Maier
Assistant Director: Lindsay St. Laurent
Grip/PA/Assistant Director: Michael Galusick
Costume Designer: Bethanie Jones
Covid Compliance Officer/Extra: Jack Dugan
Extras:
Beck Pete
Eloise Kelsey
Ariane Gabriel
Felice Magistrali
Tonina Saputo
Jennie Price
Blaize Adam
Bailey Chapman
Elliott Marchent
Hannah Crowley
Sam Pine
Tom Heddell
Jacob Berger (Moontower)
Tom Carpenter (Moontower)
Julie Rodriguez
Daniel David Stewart
Production Company/Filming Location: Stommelhaus
Filming Location: Big Door Studio
Catering: Well Done!
Affiliate Funding: Pure Options
In My Breath LYRICS
(With you)
Been a while,
Oh it’s been a while,
I still see you on my ceiling,
Oh like I’m dreaming,
And though it’s fleeting.
It’s enough to steal me away.
Steal me away.
(It’s been a while, oh it’s been a while,
Have you fell in love again?)
Just when I’m starting to get on again…
Get on again.
Just when I’m starting to get on again…
Get on again.
Been a while, it’s been a while.
Have you fell in love again?
Been a while, it’s been a while.
Have you fell in love again?
Float through the night,
Float through the night.
You’re in my breath babe,
In my breath,
In my breath,
In my breath babe.
