I used to be afraid to love

And putting my heart on the line

It was not the commitment 

Or the chance of rejection and being left alone that worried me

It was loving the wrong person 

And falling in too deep

It was wondering if I would learn to love myself

While I loved you

It was the fear that you would not love me

As I loved you

The fear is still present

Yet, suppressed

Hidden by daydreams of road trips and adventures

Covered by hopes for jam sessions to our favorite songs

Drowned in aspirations of spending all day playing basketball together

Or all night watching movies

The gentle dreams of what we could be 

I imagine so much joy

And laughter 

And love

But I can only imagine what it would be like to love you fully

To fall in uncontrollably

To be with you endlessly

Despite my fear

Worry 

And doubt

I'm not afraid to love you

To be your everything

To make you my world

You took my fear

And for that I am grateful

For that I am thankful

And for that

I love you