I’m close to 23
I can’t remember half of the time that I’ve been alive
I can’t remember half of the time that I’ve been alive
I’m close to 23
it’s very hard for me to think
it’s very hard for me to think
about a time when I was fully living,
fully dancing,
fully happy
Cause half of my time was spent in a strayed
neighborhood
and half was on the East side
Who do you call when it’s late at night?
When the headlines just don’t paint the picture right
When you look at yourself in the mirror and say
“Oh my God there’s no way that’s me”
I, I quit drugs,
well recently I tried
well recently I tried
And I moved to a new house, and I barely go outside
And I remember this girl with pink hair in Dubai
What she told me
She said,
“Nora you gotta promise us that you won’t die
“Nora you gotta promise us that you won’t die
cause he needs you”
honestly I think that she lied
honestly I think that she lied
And I remember the name of every single thing Cat says
But I forget half the people who I’ve gotten in bed
And I’ve stared at the sky in New York
And hoped that my mother would finally call me
It’s just these things that I’m thinking for hours
And I’m picking my hair out and clumping the shower
I lost the love of my life to an ivory virus
but then I realized I’m no higher power
I wasn’t in love then
and I’m still not now
I’m so happy I figured that out
I’ve got a long way to go into self-preservation
Think my moral compass is on a vacation
I can’t believe I still feed my fucking temptations
I’m still looking for my salvation
Soft and slow, watch the minutes go
Count out loud so I know I don’t keep it for myself
