Huddled over chinese takeaway,

overflowing bin a restless halo of tissues-

you always used to call me angel.

My food tastes like salt water

And I want to laugh at how stupid this is;

you haven’t made me cry in a while.

Grab at cold sheets, counting elephants and

Pushing my nose into the blanket 

So I can’t breathe for a minute. 

The reason I feel stupid is because

I wish so badly that if I breathe in deep enough,

It’ll start to smell like you.

We always knew it would come to this,

But I was supposed to break you not the

other way around

I’d been kissing the air,

gone like the wind and

I started to wonder if you were ever really there.

So I told you to say goodbye,

Said you can’t say no

you didn’t even fight it.

Like a shaven head,

Laid back on a deathbed;

We put us to sleep my love.

And now I bite at

Noodles with my teeth,

Wishing they were your lips because

I miss you.

Really I shouldn’t but its too late now,

The hole won’t fill up

Its too big and its shaped a lot like 

you.

So come back inside 

an angel needs you tonight.

5th April 2019, 22:46

Bhamini  Grace Joseph