Huddled over chinese takeaway,
overflowing bin a restless halo of tissues-
you always used to call me angel.
My food tastes like salt water
And I want to laugh at how stupid this is;
you haven’t made me cry in a while.
Grab at cold sheets, counting elephants and
Pushing my nose into the blanket
So I can’t breathe for a minute.
The reason I feel stupid is because
I wish so badly that if I breathe in deep enough,
It’ll start to smell like you.
We always knew it would come to this,
But I was supposed to break you not the
other way around
I’d been kissing the air,
gone like the wind and
I started to wonder if you were ever really there.
So I told you to say goodbye,
Said you can’t say no
you didn’t even fight it.
Like a shaven head,
Laid back on a deathbed;
We put us to sleep my love.
And now I bite at
Noodles with my teeth,
Wishing they were your lips because
I miss you.
Really I shouldn’t but its too late now,
The hole won’t fill up
Its too big and its shaped a lot like
you.
So come back inside
an angel needs you tonight.
5th April 2019, 22:46
5th April 2019, 22:46
Bhamini Grace Joseph
