You were right to leave.
I was floating in deep waters of my own,
I wasn’t trying to swim,
I was just there,
floating with my head above water.
Sometimes I would twist around,
I twirled and dived,
but I wasn’t swimming anywhere.
I was waiting for the life raft to arrive.
I realize now it was never coming.
I’ve never wanted to rely too much on anyone.
Blame it on my upbringing,
I never grew up with either parent at “home”.
It made me uncertain and always with the idea that I had to be incredibly independent.
Even when I’ve been in situations with someone wanting to love and take care of me,
I didn’t know how to stay there.
But with you,
it was our love that made everything so different.
It wasn’t fair to begin to drown together,
just holding each other tight.
Swimming away from me was the right thing to do,
To find the land we both wanted.
Swimming separately was right.
