Razors and claws, talons everywhereGrasping at my bare skin Tearing off my flesh with every new wordYour tongue like ice to a struggling fire like mine All around a blizzard sets inMaking my skin paler, more fragile, easier to draw the satisfying red from my veinsThis is what they want? Isn’t it?For me to bleedTo live up to the contrast that is blood and fire on the days fresh snowTo add to the...

Dark waves rolling, crashing endlessly, without end…A world within a world, within a universeand yet each front quiet, not a word to be heard.The vastness of the sea - rich and empty. The shoreline empty, not another soul in sight.Never any other souls in sight.Always alone,even in places so filled with others, I do not appear to them,I do not exist. So I come to the sea,watching the waves rol...

It's been a thousand years or twenty minutes since I last wanted to dieDefinitely one of the twoI've been counting my breaths, are you counting as well?There's something inside of me that's golden,This core of hope I can't seem to qwell and I was wondering if you had any advice about that?I'm a billion years old or I haven't been born yetDefinitely one of the twoI exist in star stuff and the c...

I’m better now though 😬🤓🙃 

Pick and pull, tear away. How much will be left?

Who am I, really? She or I?

Upcoming art that’s in a show in Northampton, Massachusetts this October. The piece is called “Bottoms up.”

I painted this portrait because I wanted to show a personal, vulnerable side to me. It’s taken from a reference photo that I took on one of my first dialysis sessions in Hospital. It was an emotional time for many reasons, I felt scared, bewildered, exhausted and sad but also relived to be getting the treatment as it would make me feel better over time. When I got home after the first few sess...

I was first diagnosed with CKD (Chronic Kidney Disease) in 2003 out of the blue after a random cholesterol blood test. They told me my kidneys were working at 30%. I didn’t really understand what this meant at the time, as a young person, I was fortunate not to have any symptoms throughout my illness, including the year I spent on dialysis in 2009-2010.On 28th December 2010 I got multiple phon...

This is where I came from, not proudly.Evening blood rippling unevenlyAcross the icing of an artexed wall,A dining table for instance, busted,That airless intoxication of shame.Those were my days.Not Beirut or Belfast but home.The mind framing that jagged realityIn a spray of family snapshots,Laughing at itself in quiet times,Mutilating imagined enemies in dreams,A daily pill the cheapened pri...

Will you still love me when I’m a howling wind, pushing against your very foundations? I’m a tornado, constantly sucking in and spitting out. Some days I drown in the quagmires of my psychobiological dysfunction, others I freeze, locked in the icy grip of trauma. On other days I race through a thousand thoughts a minute and impulsively damage things, most often myself. You deserve someone that ...