What could've been


Almost touching mine, rests the leg of someone else 
who got swallowed up by time. 
I share a train home 
with a woman drawing the face of her crying child,
and a man watching a marathon on his phone – 
taking pain killers for mystery aches in his legs and his sides.
Through a gap between seats, two strangers of the same age 
quietly wait for each other
then part ways. 

I breathe in what could’ve been. I realise it was never alive.
I take out a book and a pen
and underline the words I wish I’d combined.
Tonight I’ll sleep beside a skeleton, 
and cling to the bare bones of my thoughts. 
I’ll wake up the same – 
without a name for my book nor a book to my name.
I’ll remind myself the page is patient.
The page can’t be blamed.