Here is my song Choked Up. It was my first ever release and it amassed 50k streams in the first month with ZERO paid promotion.
When I was 16 I went through a myriad of unfortunate circumstances. My family was going through a really rough battle, and I was diagnosed with depression and bipolar II. I hit rock bottom my junior year of high school. I skipped school days at a time, I drank half a bottle before noon, and I smoked pack a week. I became addicted to my pills and overdosed on my depression medication, then tried to jump off my church balcony on Christmas day. It was a tough time and on top of that I realized I had feelings for my best friend, who is a girl, and I had no idea what that meant because I grew up religious and this was considered blasphemy. I loved her and I rationalized in my head that the only way to keep my family from getting hurt and to protect her from the monster I had become was to stay away - and she didn't like that one bit. She (rightfully) continued to correct my behavior and tried to help me wean off my bad habits. While I was sitting on the ledge of my church she found me just in time to pull me back. She didn't scold me, she took me to her house and took care of me. After that I felt embarrassed and got cleaned up and kept moving forward, but I once again rationalized that I couldn't be with her. Choked up symbolizes me losing my first love due to my own mistakes and feeling like I wasn't enough for her - or rather, too much for her to handle. Hope you guys enjoy!
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