there were words left unsaid that shouldn’t have been,
and maybe the future will never hold those words.
but as i lose sleep, avoiding dreams full of you
and i lay awake, wishing i could sleep so that i won’t envision our memory
i realize the inevitability of us.
maybe we will become a memory that we forget
or maybe the universe has more in store for us.
when i was young, talking about the future meant rocket ships, flying cars, and technology.
you changed my future.
whether you meant to or not, when we met, i could envision my future more clearly than ever before.
and i’m aware that the time that i envision would be with you only exist in that state of mind, my imagination drifts so effortlessly through it.
when we met i had no intentions of being more than me and you, i had no intentions of us, but that was the inevitable. little did i know.
so now when i see shooting stars and stare at the moon i’ll remember when you told me you loved me and the way it rolled off your lips,
i don’t remember intentionally fixating on the curves of your face and the lights that shone through your eyes but now that you’re gone it is my deepest memory.
my lips mimicked yours, the words rolling back into the world after i swallowed them, i love you.
i remember our first kiss.
it haunts my dreams, in the best way.
i may never kiss you again, and my lips may forget the taste of yours.
the raspberry tobacco that stained our nose while we danced under the stars after you plucked my innocence so effortlessly.
there are words i wish i could say to you now,
that if i fell for you, i told you that i would never recover.
as i’m attempting to heal from the scratches of my fall, i am reminded of that, for they seem to fade and come back.
maybe one day we will meet as strangers who love one another more than they should, but we aren’t really strangers then are we.
