Say that I’m your favorite literary character
Just so you can tell me I’m not the one
Jesus this must be my heart breaking
Is this what perfect looks like coming undone?
Inextricable in theory, but in reality it’s just a mess
Unable to eat or sleep, then tragedy strikes again
Is the world just beating me
Berating me
What did I do?
How do I explain, that maybe, just maybe I might be broken too?
I swear to god you must be fine, because no god would let you live alone feeling like me.
Desperation crawling out
It doesn’t live within me, but surrounds.
Tell me will that shiny blade ease my suffering… because
I assure you it’s all I think about
It consumes me
In every way.
I want to see me fall apart, feel the hurt just drain to nothing-
But it’s only momentary but a moment is still something.
Then back I swing to my suffering like the blood as it drips down my leg
Each drop as it falls, a reminder…
I’m my own.
But you’ve had me,
You said,” to stay”
What I gave you?
I know peace to sleep, a mind to share your thoughts… a heart to give your feelings to.
A reason you were happy
To be here
To be alive.
Or maybe we’re all liars
You- the greatest of them all.
To have me fall for the you of yous,
And convince me
I was the
One,
The only-
