They won’t reply right away. Your eyes are blurry right away. They feel like strangers at the metro station. You’re listening to alphabet soup dictating your future. Jamaica Cider on stand by. Did you tell your lover that you love them today? They’re so far away and they prefer to be all of the above. Sing them a song that reminds them of a time when they weren’t yet born. Drink up, it's getting cold. 

You plan days in your head and imagine that life isn’t so unbearable. You won’t kill yourself today. Your belly is warm. It’s that initial feeling in a relationship, the butterflies at the pit of your stomach but for alcohol. God, it’s love. That peach-pink hue liquid makes you feel like you're in love, like you can climb the stairs on your hands and reach the roof and jump off it just to find out you can glide and fly fly fly fly. 

You had one meal today + candy. You look up who you’re listening to, someone called Leon Larregui...his voice is everything and also responsible for Zoé. Where is your mind? You forgot you took your pill and decided to take another for safe bets. The feel of the pill in your hands wasn’t something you had experienced today. We can safely say you took 20mg instead of 40mg. Safe bet. Until you realize the blurred vision could be a side effect of the pill times two. Deleted lines and aching throats. There is no more toilet paper left. We take a mental picture of us sitting on top of paper towels, elbows on our knees, hands on our chin, wearing embroidered red.