If he were the sun
I'd gladly embrace him
Even if it meant I'd burn

I'd rather fuel the fantasy of having you close
than having to deal with the smoke when you leave
you, existing to set my heart ablaze;
me, trying to put out the fire
by standing under the rain.

I wish I could burn through
my heart like I burn through
my arm because then maybe
I wouldn't have to feel the way
I betrayed you
 
Strike me as you would a match,
against the surfaces of my skin.
Not once, but many times
Until I catch fire.

With every letter you wrote me,
I knew you'd be mine.
I thought you were mine forever.
You built me a whole new world,
Villages and castles,
Forests and oceans,
From just your paragraphs.
As I read them again, 
I search for the time that you were mine,
I search for your love,
For the proof that you belonged to me.
The world seemed to burn down around me,
our world is crumbling with our love.
Do you know what my mother said?
You're obsessed,
paranoid with how they deceive you.
Now, you have forfeited that place in myself,
The place in my heart,
The place in our love
My first love