Iv'e been looking at myself through everyone elses eyes
But also through my own new lenses.
It's exhausting me, I'm drinking more and sleeping less.
Theres been a lot of humilaiation.
Theres been a fuck load of questions
Theres been uncertainty
And theres been a few hard fought tears.
But what if its a good thing?
I've been worrying that it will mean an entire reset.
I've been worried that people will...
I've been worrying I won't ever be able to reconnect with old friends
I'm worried that everything that went before is gone or been called out as a liar
But what if its a good thing?
What if I get to completely wipe the slate?
What if I get to just be who I am?
What if all the years of pretending collapses around me?
What if I can be comfiortbale as being an overly sensetive, shy guy who plays music?
What if it's a good thing?
What if this is the moment of culmination and release?
What if this is where I drop the weights off?
What if, What if?
What if?