felt the tide
recede from me
so I angled out my body
and tilted my head back
In the pull away
We could be closer
Myself and I
But it was all so strange
I wanted to let you in
But I called without an answer
And reached out for a new
Hand to hold
But I was still a burning fire
your words they nurtured
Mothered me
And birthed a brand new space
A new home
Feeling
eyes looked like they knew
a seedling
craving water
and soul food
but the drawn tide left me dry
My mind is tangled like my fingers
They don’t know what to do
And do you love me ?
I have breathed from my lungs
a million times
but on this call you always answer..
But I cannot deny the feeling ...
maybe it’s all just me
the way I hung your fairy lights from my trees
how I smiled at the sound of you
Where are you now
Where are you now
I sit inside a new thing
a smile sweet like jaggery
Laid back and smiled
But your blue eyes
Is still dancing around
And
your sweet tone
still covers up my ears
This pretty song wants
to roll so badly off my tongue
But in the beat of this summer
It is not how I want to be sounding
But here you are..
Your name charging through my door
In my sleep
Alongside my morning
All so sweet
And sure
I was feeling
Im back in the day..
With a new body dressed in red
not knowing how ready I was
to unravel with you
It rained
and u gave comfort
and the little things you’d say
soaked up deep cracks
Smooth frame
And in the day
she dances
Stealing glances
Not knowing whether I should run
Or I should stay
I decided.. to let the tide pull me in
I missed all of your kisses
Where are they?
Closed eyes could feel
The lightning
An electric gaze
Electric fingers
Danced for months after those days
A word
Embrace
Kindness
Grace
Every thing you gave
tied a bead that decorates my neck
each finger is a match
and each piece of you
An open flame
To love im so afraid
But all so ready
to fall freely from its cliffs
Today
I called
the rhythm of your heartbeat
soft breath against my ear
sweet eyes
Do you remember?
How I traced out every outline
Of your country
What a thing so strange
so new
so far away
My love, tell me
Did you see the moment I jumped
from off the edge
Into your eyes
why did I cried to those songs
love’s waterfall
And I could not have been more happy
Just to be sung so freely
To love you
There’s a stew that’s been simmering
Pouring from the parts of my heart
But maybe it was too soon?
Honey did I burn your lip?
It was not in my intentions I promise..
I am new to this
Now I am finding
A night of no lights
And I tried to wait for you
Sapphire thunder
now hung in solemn blue
down my back
It was like
All I could do was shout
To the world
And half across it ,
I told her too
How I was still on fire
Her
almond eyes
Told me
My heart was my strength
and is my greatest power
But also
Could turn me to the bluest blue
how long can you keep me waiting?
I hope even as my heart is aching
Here are some roses
With petals colored like my truth
That sing like the color of my skin
I just want you to know..
You have shown me the oceans
Colored my heart like precious stone
I’ll always love you ..
I hope you’ll stay
But also
I love you if you go.