today i feel sad

i got out of bed 

and i found myself mad

at the fact i wasn’t dead

 

the bird singing 

out my window

left when i cried

for him to go

 

the sun pierced out 

from behind my shutters

i’d rather blackout

cause now my head hurts

 

i went down to have breakfast 

but i didn’t have enough time 

i wanna go back in the past 

when nothing ever had to rhyme

 

so i went to brush my teeth

because society and people 

do not like you if you reek 

and you end up all alone

 

i caught my eye in the mirror 

avoided the look of it 

then when back to make clearer

that i was the one on it 

 

small eyes wreathed by dark circles 

my hair a mess in disorder 

cheeks punctuated with pimples

that face has nothing to offer

 

so i wash it and make it pretty

put a bit of foundation on

otherwise they will feel pity 

for the sleepless night i pulled off

 

but that’s only what they think

i did rest 

i even wore a dress bright pink

on my quest 

that i dreamt of 

 

i catch my eye again

who is she

a warrior or a weakling?

i think i know her better

 

she can do good things 

she knows things 

she has a mind and a powerful voice

don’t cross her out, there are consequences to this action

 

she has a presence

she knows who she is

she has a nice face, doesn’t she?

and the hair is perfectly shaped

 

a feeling of belonging 

to the whole universe

nests in my heart

when she looks at me

 

i have only just met this stranger

but i think i love her

and i think she loves me

and if she doesn’t, i will make her

 

because she seems like she is good enough

so why shouldn’t i be?

i am she

she is i

 

in the end i think

today i am worth it 

and if anyone thinks the opposite

then let them: 

today i have decided

that today i love myself.