wanting to end it all but
fighting to learn my purpose
tired of this life
not being understood
well, what is why purpose
do i have one
seems like i don’t
in these times who’s really there
not one soul
lonely i’ve been feeling
the person i go to the most
don’t wanna burden
i call on God
is he still there
maybe i’m not listening hard enough
why must i wait so long
deep inside i can’t seem to feel this pain anymore
numb i am to all of this
when it’d be much easier to fill my lungs with water as i lay in the tub
or engulfing my body with flames as i sit and bear the pain
do i really wanna go through with this
no but maybe soon if i can’t get the help i need
and find clear sanity