When I float on existential dread
It reminds me of a time 
When I’d float lighter 
When I was younger and at one
With the salt 
When it was simpler and I was joined
With water


My mother drowned me in the sea
And it was on that day
That I fell in love 
For with this lack of breath came 
acquiesce
And with this watery lung came 
A pregnancy of my own mind