we tried again
knowing, deep down, that we were destined to destroy one another.
we tried to get back to our golden days;
days of laughter and sun and childhood fun
and god i wish we didn't.
whether with small ways or big ways
we couldn't stop hurting one another
tearing the other apart from the inside out,
picking at bones.
i wish it were simple.
i wish i could forget the hurt you caused me, and forgive myself for the hurt i caused you.
i wish it could wash away and we could go back to how we used to be.
just you and me.
you'd think, after all this time
all these years of knowing you and being hurt by you
i'd have learnt something
but time and time again
i lead myself to be destroyed by you.
maybe
second chances just don't work for some people.