Before I started the self-portrait project, I have been recording the changes caused by population movement, urbanization, and globalization for a long time by taking landscape photos. I call them ‘Do Not Ask Me Where Is It.’. I documented the development and changes of the society around me. Then I realized that I had been changed a lot during the process for years. Not only because I am one of those people who’s getting involved in some movements, but also, I am one of those people who’s making some changes intentionally or unintentionally. It is a projection on me about the population movement, urbanization, and globalization. 

I always said: 'I'm fine.’ when people asked me: 'Are you OK in the United States?’. Every time. In fact, I have no idea how to answer this silly mean-less question. Cause no matter the situation here is getting better or worse, I can hardly go anywhere. As far as I am concerned, it was horrible when Wuhan was totally locked down for 3 months. However, what is out of my mind is that I am still living in the busiest jail in the world. 

When you left home for a long time, maybe you would lose. When the world changes too fast, maybe you would lose. When you live under hate and unfairness, maybe you would lose. But when you are an Asian being stuck in an apartment in Forest Hills, Queens, NY, the US for a year, then you would have enough time to think. Cause you do not need to face those outsides.

 So, I decided to reconcile with myself but not keep complaining and blaming and share the limited room with another me.